Flexible structure has been my new focus. I need structure I thrive on structure to detriment. I really never realized that until this week. So I was given a new perspective, flexible structure. Sounds like a contradiction at first but then when you really think about it it becomes very apparent. I need to be flexible but always return to my structure as quickly as possible. I set out a schedule or a goal I make a plan.

Perfect example I started this journal on Sunday I was pulled in different directions but I need to flex and return to my structure. So first chance I return to finish.
My first two weeks on Mike Dolce have been great. I am feeling better and seeing results. I really haven’t even kicked it up yet. Getting use to the food part was the first step. It was a big change within our home but bridge has been crossed.
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Tuesday, February 28, 2012 | Category: | 0 comments

Running to stand still!
This about sums it up. At times I am running through the maze other times I am lost. Right now I am both. My journaling has been one of the biggest disappointments over the past year. I felt journaling had to be a total positive outlet and I was wrong. Journaling should be an everything outlet. It seems when I was journaling regularly I was content with where I was. I have meandered the last year in mediocrity and wonder why I am stuck where I am stuck. Its not that I blame anybody but myself but it is pretty tough not to have an excuse for failure. I have blamed my schedule without adapting. I have blamed others for not motivating me when motivation comes from within. When it really comes down to it I probably was just looking for a way out. I don’t have a way out, I don’t want a way out.
I will get back to goal setting but for now I only want to journal success and failures. Yes that is correct failure. Most of us want to hide failure but it truly means I am still trying. So what I have done not what I am going to do. For now... I understand that this is not the way to mastery but I need to take steps towards that and I am not there right now. This weekend I worked 37 hours in 3 days. That’s a bit more then normal but weekends are always when I work the bulk of my hours. Normally I would make time for very little else. Instead I wrote a long over due email to a teacher. I committed to a project and completed my 100 push ups for the day. Today I am journaling. I failed to do my sit-ups commitment. I failed to start a challenge from my core curriculum teacher. My biggest success was a week ago I started Mike Dolce Living lean. I have lost 5 lbs in the first week and feel great. Good enough that it has motivated me to change. I have a diet partner and together we have made the changes necessary for success. Thank you Alanna. I will continue to post positive and negative progress of the plan.
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Sunday, February 19, 2012 | Category: | 1 comments