Quitting

Today I went for a 45 min walk around the running circle at the TLC with my mom. In the past few months my parents have begun to study Ti chi. so we have had a few conversations about martial arts. Today was the same as we ambled we talked. I told her about where I was and where I wanted to go. I let her know I had emailed Master Brinker and we had a firm date to start. She then asked me did he ask why you quit.
I said no he was just happy we were returning. Then for a moment I was speechless. Just a moment.

Why did I abandon my training in the first place? I have been so wrapped up in starting over again I did not take the time to think about why I stopped. I could go on forever about everything I lost when I stopped going to Kung Fu.

I thought I would convey my excuses as not to fall pray again to theses mistakes.
I eight mile myself so there is no excuse I could possible use. Now these are thoughts I have or had in head floating around. While floating around one can seem to find acceptance. As I write them down I can not believe how pathetic and petty they actually were.

• 6:40 a.m. am I crazy


• -30 and can not see through the frosted front door


• My training partner is pregnant


• I am lazy


• Life is to stressful to have another responsibility


• Accountability


• My uniform will not stay on because I am too overweight


• Too old


• Can not train to my old abilities


• Did I say I am lazy
  

These are most in a nutshell. So changes I have made or am making.
I have changed to the 9:00 class.
I will install command start and I bought training shoes.
Oliver is almost five and I have my training partner back.
Laziness is a work in progress.
Kung Fu will help with stress not add to it.
I need to be held accountable.
I am doing Body for life with a goal of 185 pounds by September 17th.
I will fix my uniform so it will stay together we have the technology.
Old is a mind set ask George Forman or Lance Armstrong.
Hard work will reinstate my abilities.